Just Be

I listened to a pod cast recently that basically read my inner most secrets and gently displayed them on a table for me to sift through like a junk drawer I was cleaning out. I felt as though the thoughts and feelings I had towards this particular issue were not really issues at all.  I knew everyone has these feelings from time to time so it's just human nature and that's that. Wrong. I have multiple people in my life who have accomplished much or in my eyes have done great and big things. When I would talk to them whether by phone, face to face or social media I exuded with celebration. I told them how I was so proud, how I was cheering them on, or how awesome that was for them and their journey. If it was social media I liked or even loved a post.  Then yesterday in the midst of my beautiful mess, my dialog with the Lord went like this: God: "Do you really feel that way?" Me: "What do you mean, why yes I celebrate them, of course I have on my happy pants ...

When I think back on my life I can remember the times I quit something so early in the process,  whether it be piano, dance, soccer and even school for that matter.  I struggled at a very early age with fear.  If something looked as though it was too difficult or I wouldn't be any good at it, I quit.  I am reminded of jobs I would get and feel as though I just wasn't good enough or I would not be successful at it and I would leave and move on to the next.  I struggled even when I started writing this blog back in Alabama a year ago.  It has always been a dream of mine to write but I got stuck in my own fear of thinking it wasn't going to be good enough or effective enough or perfect, that I just stopped.  It has been a very vicious cycle in my life. I went to a conference recently and out of the entire experience I was hit with something I believe will change the course of my life.  "Do it afraid."  I, for so long have feared the unknown an...